The title sort of explains where I'm at right now. I want to sit down and write something and/or be creative in some way, but I feel...I don't know. My head feels elsewhere, although I'm not to sure where that elsewhere place is..(feeling the need to make a Marrowind joke/reference).
This is maddening, it's like I can feel all of the creativity just seeping over the edges, waiting to come pouring out, but alas, I am left with nothing other than the feeling. Feeling like I am going to burst from the seams and go artistically crazy.
Perhaps a good dose of exercise class will help...but that's the thing, I don't want to exercise out my creativity... lol, read that again, exercise out my creativity, like it's some sort of demon. Oh for the love of peanut butter, it's no demon.
Maybe, I'll work a bit more on my apron today, or type out the few poems I had written lately. Oye, I need to do something. This drive, but no time or release, is maddening.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley
Lynn
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Monday, July 30, 2012
A Short Post
Things I accomplished today:
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
- Made it to work
- Made it to class
- Finished homwork
- Took brother driving
- Went grocery shopping
- Overheated a bit
- Ate way too much
- Posted new pic of the day
- Took care of the kitties
- Folded laundry
- and much, much more.....
Yay! It's right side up!
The end... good night all!
P.S. Those of you who haven't seen the rest or forgot what it may look like, please refer to And Yet Another Week Begins blog post.
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Sunday, July 29, 2012
The Five W's & Ponderings
Why?
- Do I allow myself to get in my head about silly things?
- Do I over think things a bit more than one should?
- Do I allow panic attacks when I know everything will work out?
Who?
- Can be counted on in times of need or hardship?
- Is really the boss of my life?
- Says that people aren't capable of being happy?
What?
- Is it that keeps me from my dreams?
- Is it that keeps me from going insane?
- Will keep my mind at ease and things at bay?
Where?
- Do I suppose I'll be in five years?
- Do my silly head thoughts come from?
- Is it that my head goes, when I'm away?
When?
- Will people learn to let go of the past and just learn from it?
- Will people allow others to live without judging them?
- Will things begin to make sense and stay that way?
Most, if not all of these, I should have the answers to. Some I know for sure of the answer, while others linger a bit in mocking tones. Some of the answers should even be quite obvious and I am sure that we have all asked ourselves these at least once in our lives. However, do we ever have a definite answer to any of them? Are all the answers subject to change? And if so, why do we worry about the questions so much? Sometimes it seems like it is just question after question. I imagine a little stick figure drowning in a sea of question marks at times, because at times that is how I feel. Just this little insignificant being with none of the answers. With no help for no one, not even myself.
I use to ponder on the meaning of life and what the world or even the universe may have in store, but now I try to just stay focused on one day at a time. However, sometimes in this place it is difficult to live that way, focused on one day at a time. It can seem so overwhelming here, exhausting, and like I may never be good enough. When my head reaches that point, it sort of begins to spiral down and further down, until beyond rock bottom. It is very difficult to stay afloat in a boat with several holes in the bottom of it.
I am, by no means complaining. I have been pretty lucky, especially as of late. As much as I dislike using this next phrase, I have been blessed these past several weeks on a few things and one is of higher importance then some. Sometimes, I often wonder if the fact that I am a lover and not a fighter has anything to do with how things might effect me...and life...and so on. It seems like the lovers of this world tend to also be the thinkers; which is sort of strange to me, I would think that the lovers would lean more towards feeling and less thinking. Who knows, maybe we are all loosing our ability to truly feel and perhaps that's why we always over think things.
Or... Perhaps I am just tired. I wonder why life can't be good in all areas at the same time? For me, I find that if life is great and seemingly perfect in one area of my life, it's not so much in most other areas. Maybe it's a universal balance thing.
What's even more strange to me at the moment is that normally I would reread this and think that I wasn't in a very good space, but not tonight. Tonight, when reading this over, I'm...well, I'm not worried, nor am I thinking I'm in a bad space. I kind of feel very impartial to it all. I wonder what that says about me?
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
- Do I allow myself to get in my head about silly things?
- Do I over think things a bit more than one should?
- Do I allow panic attacks when I know everything will work out?
Who?
- Can be counted on in times of need or hardship?
- Is really the boss of my life?
- Says that people aren't capable of being happy?
What?
- Is it that keeps me from my dreams?
- Is it that keeps me from going insane?
- Will keep my mind at ease and things at bay?
Where?
- Do I suppose I'll be in five years?
- Do my silly head thoughts come from?
- Is it that my head goes, when I'm away?
When?
- Will people learn to let go of the past and just learn from it?
- Will people allow others to live without judging them?
- Will things begin to make sense and stay that way?
Most, if not all of these, I should have the answers to. Some I know for sure of the answer, while others linger a bit in mocking tones. Some of the answers should even be quite obvious and I am sure that we have all asked ourselves these at least once in our lives. However, do we ever have a definite answer to any of them? Are all the answers subject to change? And if so, why do we worry about the questions so much? Sometimes it seems like it is just question after question. I imagine a little stick figure drowning in a sea of question marks at times, because at times that is how I feel. Just this little insignificant being with none of the answers. With no help for no one, not even myself.
I use to ponder on the meaning of life and what the world or even the universe may have in store, but now I try to just stay focused on one day at a time. However, sometimes in this place it is difficult to live that way, focused on one day at a time. It can seem so overwhelming here, exhausting, and like I may never be good enough. When my head reaches that point, it sort of begins to spiral down and further down, until beyond rock bottom. It is very difficult to stay afloat in a boat with several holes in the bottom of it.
I am, by no means complaining. I have been pretty lucky, especially as of late. As much as I dislike using this next phrase, I have been blessed these past several weeks on a few things and one is of higher importance then some. Sometimes, I often wonder if the fact that I am a lover and not a fighter has anything to do with how things might effect me...and life...and so on. It seems like the lovers of this world tend to also be the thinkers; which is sort of strange to me, I would think that the lovers would lean more towards feeling and less thinking. Who knows, maybe we are all loosing our ability to truly feel and perhaps that's why we always over think things.
Or... Perhaps I am just tired. I wonder why life can't be good in all areas at the same time? For me, I find that if life is great and seemingly perfect in one area of my life, it's not so much in most other areas. Maybe it's a universal balance thing.
What's even more strange to me at the moment is that normally I would reread this and think that I wasn't in a very good space, but not tonight. Tonight, when reading this over, I'm...well, I'm not worried, nor am I thinking I'm in a bad space. I kind of feel very impartial to it all. I wonder what that says about me?
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Friday, July 27, 2012
Happy Friday!!!
Hmmm, sooo they are sideways... well that bites, but I guess it works. I can't seem to fix it either. :-(
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Thursday, July 26, 2012
It's Been Awhile
Wow... Six days since I have posted last. *sigh* I wanted to try to make this an every day thing, but it doesn't look like that is going to happen. I guess I'll be changing it to a when I get to it type thing.
Summer term has been crazy! In both good and bad ways. Lets end on a good note, so first the bad ways: I got dumbed, my computer laptop screen blacked out 1/3 of the screen, the Internet connection went funny so I couldn't do homework for awhile, which then led to me being behind on my net class, funds are low due to the only working a week out of this last month, still haven't found a place that adore cats as much as I do and car is squealing.
Good ways: the number one reason I'd still like to keep to myself atm, but I promise in due time I will shall (well, I shouldn't promise.), I was finally able to catch up on some of my homework last night, core & cardio and ceramics are going great, I am feeling artistic and inspired once again, I was able to keep my job for summer term, I'm getting a tattoo done next Friday, and back to the number one reason that keeps my feet on the ground, my head in the clouds and is my place I call home. :-)
Between work, school, outside friends, family and animals I sometimes feel like I am incapable of breathing. However, I don't really think that I would change too much. I am rather happy with were life seems to be going at the moment. It has been busy, yes, and there has been heart ache and hardship, but I believe that it is all worth it.
To all my friends who have stuck by my side through this chaotic mess and busy schedule....THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH. You all mean a lot to me, more than I could ever explain and more than I have been showing as of late. Just remember that I love you all and even though life is hectic I will make time for you, especially if you need me.
And a very big special thanks goes out to the place I call home. xoxoxo.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Summer term has been crazy! In both good and bad ways. Lets end on a good note, so first the bad ways: I got dumbed, my computer laptop screen blacked out 1/3 of the screen, the Internet connection went funny so I couldn't do homework for awhile, which then led to me being behind on my net class, funds are low due to the only working a week out of this last month, still haven't found a place that adore cats as much as I do and car is squealing.
Good ways: the number one reason I'd still like to keep to myself atm, but I promise in due time I will shall (well, I shouldn't promise.), I was finally able to catch up on some of my homework last night, core & cardio and ceramics are going great, I am feeling artistic and inspired once again, I was able to keep my job for summer term, I'm getting a tattoo done next Friday, and back to the number one reason that keeps my feet on the ground, my head in the clouds and is my place I call home. :-)
Between work, school, outside friends, family and animals I sometimes feel like I am incapable of breathing. However, I don't really think that I would change too much. I am rather happy with were life seems to be going at the moment. It has been busy, yes, and there has been heart ache and hardship, but I believe that it is all worth it.
To all my friends who have stuck by my side through this chaotic mess and busy schedule....THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH. You all mean a lot to me, more than I could ever explain and more than I have been showing as of late. Just remember that I love you all and even though life is hectic I will make time for you, especially if you need me.
And a very big special thanks goes out to the place I call home. xoxoxo.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Friday, July 20, 2012
Oy Vey - Thank Goodness it's Friday
Good late afternoon everybody! Oh, I wish it was good. I'm not feeling up to par today. The first time I woke up this morning was delightful, I knew I should have gotten out of bed then. However, like I always do, I slept for as long as I was able before I had to wake and get ready for the day. The second time I woke, I awoke with a little not friend, a migraine. I tried taking a hot shower to relax the muscles, tried some meds, coffee, a nap, and even a bit of food (which, for those of you who have ever suffered from migraines, knows that the food thing is a tuoghy, since one is usually suffering nausea as well.) It has finally calmed enough to just be a pestering nuisance in the background, but it did put a hitch in my plans. Well, that's not the only thing that made me change plans today, I probably would have pushed through the pain. I was going to go to the art building today to continue working on my coil project, however when I got there it was so packed that there wasn't enough room to breathe and I just have a difficult time working that way. When it comes to art I need my space, especially ceramics. So, needless to say, I headed out. I ended up taking a nice nap in the park, under the shade of a tree with the wind softly dancing overhead. It was lovely. On the plus side, I am not behind on my project, I still have two more class periods to work on it, which equals to about 8 hours.
Now, here I sit at the community library, nearing the end of my volunteer shift. It hasn't been too bad today. No outrageous patrons or upset screaming kids. We do have an older patron that calls every once in awhile that asks the most unusual questions; for instance "Who was the founder of Prada?" and "What is the most populated city in the world?" But she doesn't stop there, she then tells us what she saw on the news that day or just talks about her thoughts. I love it, I end up learning so much when she class, plus, in a way she reminds me a bit of my grandmother. It is a good thing that there are usually two of us working at the information desk though, because sometimes the conversations can take awhile.
I don't have very much planned for this evening, which I am actually thankful for in some ways. Perhaps if my head feels a bit better later, I can begin to catch up on my homework for Library Science class. I also have a bit to do for HD100, but that one shouldn't take as long, just a few personality quizzes and such.
Tomorrow, I will be headed to the Holistic fair, which should be an interesting and fun experience. Then in the evening I will be attending a play called "Nunsence"at RCC (the college). Sunday, I am excited to say that I will be going to a huge picnic with a dear friend of mine. It should be another full weekend of fun and fancy.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Now, here I sit at the community library, nearing the end of my volunteer shift. It hasn't been too bad today. No outrageous patrons or upset screaming kids. We do have an older patron that calls every once in awhile that asks the most unusual questions; for instance "Who was the founder of Prada?" and "What is the most populated city in the world?" But she doesn't stop there, she then tells us what she saw on the news that day or just talks about her thoughts. I love it, I end up learning so much when she class, plus, in a way she reminds me a bit of my grandmother. It is a good thing that there are usually two of us working at the information desk though, because sometimes the conversations can take awhile.
I don't have very much planned for this evening, which I am actually thankful for in some ways. Perhaps if my head feels a bit better later, I can begin to catch up on my homework for Library Science class. I also have a bit to do for HD100, but that one shouldn't take as long, just a few personality quizzes and such.
Tomorrow, I will be headed to the Holistic fair, which should be an interesting and fun experience. Then in the evening I will be attending a play called "Nunsence"at RCC (the college). Sunday, I am excited to say that I will be going to a huge picnic with a dear friend of mine. It should be another full weekend of fun and fancy.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Nearing The End...
...of another week already and I haven't had time to breathe, let alone post anything. Oh my. I haven't even been keeping up on my photo of the day, shame on me, the least I could do is stay on top of that. Good news, I have been writing again. I wrote a poem of sorts the other day for a dear friend of mine and I even started another one, but that one is still in the works. This week has been full of work, class and getting that slightly back to normal (whatever normal may be). I was house sitting for a week and a half or so near the beginning of term and now I'm back at my place. It was nice to house sit for a lot of reasons, one of them being that I was only about 3-5 minutes away from the college, so that meant that I could sleep in. Yay sleep. Another is that I had some peace and quiet and my own space for a little while. Still no luck on finding a place to call my own, although I have had to sort of put searching on the back burner for now. I will admit that I haven't been hitting the pavement as hard on that particular area of my life.
I only have 6 credits this term, but that added up to be a total of 4 classes and the equivalent of 8-12 credits worth of homework, which I am slightly behind on, but nothing that an evening with the books and a Friday in art class won't fix. At least I know my limitations.
I'm happy about tonight and about the fact that it is Thursday. Tonight I have ceramics and we are working on our coil projects; I think I finally know where I am going with mine. Afterwards I am crashing at a friends place, due to the class ending so late in the evening and my mother having to wake at 3:30am. I guess that means having to work ways around my late classes from here on out until I find my own place. No biggy though, I happen to rather like my current arrangement, well not living arrangement, but staying the night with friends thing.
Well, I hate to scram without anything on interest to post, but I must print out my next assignment for Library Science before I head to Core & Cardio.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
I only have 6 credits this term, but that added up to be a total of 4 classes and the equivalent of 8-12 credits worth of homework, which I am slightly behind on, but nothing that an evening with the books and a Friday in art class won't fix. At least I know my limitations.
I'm happy about tonight and about the fact that it is Thursday. Tonight I have ceramics and we are working on our coil projects; I think I finally know where I am going with mine. Afterwards I am crashing at a friends place, due to the class ending so late in the evening and my mother having to wake at 3:30am. I guess that means having to work ways around my late classes from here on out until I find my own place. No biggy though, I happen to rather like my current arrangement, well not living arrangement, but staying the night with friends thing.
Well, I hate to scram without anything on interest to post, but I must print out my next assignment for Library Science before I head to Core & Cardio.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Monday, July 16, 2012
And Yet Another Week Begins
The weekend was fabulous! As predicted. I had fun with friends, ate delicious food, saw The Amazing Spider-Man, and got artistically inspired. I was also able to get some homework done. Which reminds me that I forgot the images for ceramics class. *sigh* I'll figure something out.
So, The Amazing Spider-Man was actually really good. I can say that I throughly enjoyed it. I liked how they stayed more true to the story line, Andrew Garfield the one who played Peter Parker did very well, I think, as both Spider-Man and Peter. He delivered the one liners that we all hoped we'd hear Spidey say. The action was well done and not too much, the crush scenes between Peter and Gwen (played by Emma Stone) were rather charming, and the story line was pretty captivating. Over all, I'd give it four stars and recommend it to others. :-)
I was finally able to get my schedule written down, for all of you interested, here it is:
Monday - 9:00am - 11:00am (Work) RCC Library
12:00pm - 12:50pm (Class) Core & Cardio
1:30pm - 4:30pm (Work) RCC Library
4:30pm - 6:00pm (Class) Library Science OL
Tuesday - 9:00am - 11:00am (Work) RCC Library
So, The Amazing Spider-Man was actually really good. I can say that I throughly enjoyed it. I liked how they stayed more true to the story line, Andrew Garfield the one who played Peter Parker did very well, I think, as both Spider-Man and Peter. He delivered the one liners that we all hoped we'd hear Spidey say. The action was well done and not too much, the crush scenes between Peter and Gwen (played by Emma Stone) were rather charming, and the story line was pretty captivating. Over all, I'd give it four stars and recommend it to others. :-)
Also, over all, I very much enjoyed my weekend. One of my current artistic projects is styling my ceramics apron, which is turning out great. Check it out:
I was finally able to get my schedule written down, for all of you interested, here it is:
Monday - 9:00am - 11:00am (Work) RCC Library
12:00pm - 12:50pm (Class) Core & Cardio
1:30pm - 4:30pm (Work) RCC Library
4:30pm - 6:00pm (Class) Library Science OL
Tuesday - 9:00am - 11:00am (Work) RCC Library
12:00pm - 12:50pm (Class) Core & Cardio
1:30pm - 4:30pm (Work) RCC Library
5:30pm - 9:30pm (Class) Ceramics I
Wednesday - 8:00am - 9:30am (Work) RCC Library
10:00am - 11:50am (Class) College Success
12:00pm - 12:50pm (Class) Core & Cardio
1:30pm - 5:00pm (Work) RCC Library
5:00pm - 6:00pm (Class) Library Science OL
Thursday - 9:00am - 11:00am (Work) RCC Library
12:00pm - 12:50pm (Class) Core & Cardio
1:30pm - 4:30pm (Work) RCC Library
5:30pm - 9:30pm (Class) Ceramics I
Friday - 10:00am - 1:30pm (Class) Open Art
2:00pm - 4:00pm (Volunteer) Josephine Library
This schedule is in effect from July 9th - August 30th 2012
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Friday, July 13, 2012
Hello Friday! And Busy Weekend!
It is so very weird that I have no school or work on Fridays. During summer term the college in completely closed. However, the nice part is that the art building (which isn't even in the same area as the college) has an open art time between 10am and 2pm. It's fantastic, that means that I can go in and work on my ceramics if I wish. The class has been amazing so far, I'm not sure I have the talent, but I am giving it my all and having fun with it. So far we have made a pinch bowl, an animal (cat or dog - I chose cat of course), a slab plate and a slab vase. I am very curious to see how they turn out.
Yesterday and today have been pretty good for the most part. I was finally able to catch up on things at work, we were so far behind due to break and a big thanks goes out to a friend who came in to give a helping hand. That took a nice load off of my shoulders. I shelved nearly eight carts worth of books, it was tiring. I am happy that Monday will go back to normal for the most part though.
Today I had the chance to hang out and have coffee with a friend and her darling little son, it was good to catch up. I hadn't seen her since the end of last term. I was also able to find a little something for a friend and myself today at our comic book store. I finally broke down and bought a t-shirt that I have been ogling for awhile now, its a Marvel vs. Capcom, so it pretty much rocks. =D *glee* Now I am volunteering at our community library as per usual for Friday afternoon. It's rather enjoyable for the most part. I am excited to possibly get to see a friend tonight, if not tonight, then defiantly tomorrow. :-)
Sunday I get to enjoy breakfast and tea with another friend and then head out to see the new Spiderman movie with another. As I have said before, I love my friends! They are the greatest. It has been so nice to get a chance to hang out with everyone again. It keeps me busy and on my toes, but it is very much worth it (lol, there are some things you will never forget from high school, thank you Miller).
Busy weekend ahead means possibly less posts, but I'll try to post at the end of the day, especially after watching Spiderman. I'll post a bit of a review. I'll be honest, I have my hesitations about this one, just as I did about the last, but I'll be sure to keep an open mind.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Yesterday and today have been pretty good for the most part. I was finally able to catch up on things at work, we were so far behind due to break and a big thanks goes out to a friend who came in to give a helping hand. That took a nice load off of my shoulders. I shelved nearly eight carts worth of books, it was tiring. I am happy that Monday will go back to normal for the most part though.
Today I had the chance to hang out and have coffee with a friend and her darling little son, it was good to catch up. I hadn't seen her since the end of last term. I was also able to find a little something for a friend and myself today at our comic book store. I finally broke down and bought a t-shirt that I have been ogling for awhile now, its a Marvel vs. Capcom, so it pretty much rocks. =D *glee* Now I am volunteering at our community library as per usual for Friday afternoon. It's rather enjoyable for the most part. I am excited to possibly get to see a friend tonight, if not tonight, then defiantly tomorrow. :-)
Sunday I get to enjoy breakfast and tea with another friend and then head out to see the new Spiderman movie with another. As I have said before, I love my friends! They are the greatest. It has been so nice to get a chance to hang out with everyone again. It keeps me busy and on my toes, but it is very much worth it (lol, there are some things you will never forget from high school, thank you Miller).
Busy weekend ahead means possibly less posts, but I'll try to post at the end of the day, especially after watching Spiderman. I'll post a bit of a review. I'll be honest, I have my hesitations about this one, just as I did about the last, but I'll be sure to keep an open mind.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Long Hot Week - Long Frustrating Day
Warning - Rant ahead:
I'm tired of feeling like people (not all just two or three) are trying to subjugate and ridicule me. I feel like I'm just one of those stupid mindless drones sometimes. Like it's not okay to ask questions or I should know everything. (she says with a heavy worn out sigh and roll of her eyes). Some people I am around tend to do this thing where they always have to be right and come up with the solution to a problem on their own. It simply drives me insane and if I ask why something isn't working or suggest ways of fixing it, nope not going to work they say....and immediately throw me a look and a reason as to why, plus a dose of making me feel inferior and slightly undermined. Well, then it gets worse by them making me feel guilty for the way I feel. I sort of feel like my skin is screaming at the moment. It doesn't help that it's been a long and tiring week. And it's hotter than Hades out! Plus, I already feel bad for being frustrated because they do help when their not being full of themselves and there is that benefit of the doubt thing I do, maybe they're acting that way because they're just as tired and hot and so on. The crazier thing to me is that we are in encultured to ask questions and be inquisitive, but then crap like this happens; which then shuts most of us down and we begin to loose that child like curiosity. It just frustrates me to no end.
A big thank you goes out to the ones who listen (especially you ;-) ) and are there without the glares, sighs, rolls of their eyes and ridicule. Thanks goes out for the advice and support. I don't know where I'd be without. Well, I do, but I don't like to think of that.
Oh gosh dang it! I have homework to do! Uhhgggg! I dislike summer, it's too hot and uncomfortable, not a good time to cuddle up with loved ones. Can't wait for Autumn, hello rain and cool air and beautiful vibrant colors. Let's end on a happy thought, shall we?
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
A big thank you goes out to the ones who listen (especially you ;-) ) and are there without the glares, sighs, rolls of their eyes and ridicule. Thanks goes out for the advice and support. I don't know where I'd be without. Well, I do, but I don't like to think of that.
Oh gosh dang it! I have homework to do! Uhhgggg! I dislike summer, it's too hot and uncomfortable, not a good time to cuddle up with loved ones. Can't wait for Autumn, hello rain and cool air and beautiful vibrant colors. Let's end on a happy thought, shall we?
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Monday, July 9, 2012
Weekend & First Day of Term
Oh my goodness what a crazy, fun and tiring past few days. I had so much fun on Saturday. I had lunch with a dear friend of mine, then we went over to a mutual friend's place and had pizza, watched Street Fighter with some pretty epic commentary, and played a pretty amazing game (which, I am sad to say I cannot remember the name of it for the life of me). We each had these cards that had a different bean of them and our goal was to plant and harvest for gold. The one with the most gold at the end of the game, wins. We are only allowed five cards at the beginning of the game, and then we have to deal, shuffle, barter and trade in order to obtain the goal. That is in it's simplest form of an explanation. It's a great game, take my word for it....there are even expansions for the game where you try to take over land. Afterwards, we hung out and shared stories. I was up until 4am, I think. It was wonderful, and I adored the company.
On Sunday, I enjoyed a delightful breakfast and french pressed coffee with that same dear friend of mine and went to go see a movie matinée of Brave. It was awesome, I loved every minute of it. I now have a new favorite short film too that they showed before the film called La Luna. It was simply delightful.
And today, well today was the beginning of Summer term. Bleh, was it ever hot! Work at the library was super busy, I was on my feet running back and forth most of the time. Classes went well, actually I only had one class today, but it still went well. It was a Core & Cardio class that was fun and intense. I checked in with my online Library Science class today and took care of my introduction to the class and teacher, did some chores for the house that I am currently house sitting and now, here I am.
Tomorrow should be fun. It's the day that I have my Ceramics I class. From 5:30pm-9:20pm. Late, long and should be worth while. Well, I am off to relax, rest my heels and get ready for another day. I find it easier to be ready for the next day before it hits you. :-)
P.S. the games are called Bohnanza and Bohnaparte
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
On Sunday, I enjoyed a delightful breakfast and french pressed coffee with that same dear friend of mine and went to go see a movie matinée of Brave. It was awesome, I loved every minute of it. I now have a new favorite short film too that they showed before the film called La Luna. It was simply delightful.
And today, well today was the beginning of Summer term. Bleh, was it ever hot! Work at the library was super busy, I was on my feet running back and forth most of the time. Classes went well, actually I only had one class today, but it still went well. It was a Core & Cardio class that was fun and intense. I checked in with my online Library Science class today and took care of my introduction to the class and teacher, did some chores for the house that I am currently house sitting and now, here I am.
Tomorrow should be fun. It's the day that I have my Ceramics I class. From 5:30pm-9:20pm. Late, long and should be worth while. Well, I am off to relax, rest my heels and get ready for another day. I find it easier to be ready for the next day before it hits you. :-)
P.S. the games are called Bohnanza and Bohnaparte
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Friday, July 6, 2012
"Strange Things Are Afoot at the Circle K"
I can't say for sure if strange things are afoot at the Circle K, but I can say strange things are afoot in my own head. Times, they are rough...for everyone, including me. One of the things that I thought was good in my life, sort of took a turn for the...well, the weird, strange and unexplainable that could turn bad. The thing is, I've found myself in this situation before and I very much dislike it. The things I do for the people I care about and love could end up hurting me in the long run, but I rarely think of things like that until it's too late. Why do I always feel like it is a good idea to give my whole heart, to open up and share? It's gotten me nothing but individuals who are unsure if they want to be with me. Is there something wrong with me? does anybody really know what they want? Yes, I realize that things change over the course of time. However, people can't always have the best of both worlds. I feel like I am never good enough, or like I am branded with some sort of unknown curse that makes people indecisive. I apologize, I'm rambling and venting. My head is fuzzy and uncomfortable. I don't know what to do about anything right now, a place to live, a computer that works, a car that doesn't freak out every few miles, a relationship that is...I don't even know what that is right now.
I am tired of being judged for who I am, what I do and how I live my life. I am tired of feeling like people aren't being fully honest for fear of hurting my feelings (I'm not made of glass, and if I was I'd be in pieces a very long time ago). I am tired of feeling like who I am is wrong. For the love of life I just want to be happy, I want to make people smile and laugh. I don't think it is too much to ask for when I ask to be fully loved, not left behind when people feel I am no good anymore and then picked up when they want me back again. I'm not a yo-yo. I'm not a toy. I can't do this, I can't type about this anymore. It's too much. I'm too flustered.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
I am tired of being judged for who I am, what I do and how I live my life. I am tired of feeling like people aren't being fully honest for fear of hurting my feelings (I'm not made of glass, and if I was I'd be in pieces a very long time ago). I am tired of feeling like who I am is wrong. For the love of life I just want to be happy, I want to make people smile and laugh. I don't think it is too much to ask for when I ask to be fully loved, not left behind when people feel I am no good anymore and then picked up when they want me back again. I'm not a yo-yo. I'm not a toy. I can't do this, I can't type about this anymore. It's too much. I'm too flustered.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Thursday, July 5, 2012
The Simple Small Stuff
My head is swimming with memories. Good ones, but it's simply flooded. I had a wonderful 4th of July. Spent it with some good friends, watching pretty fireworks and things blow up. A girl couldn't ask for more. My day so far has been slow, but good. I woke up rested and at peace for the most part. Things are hopefully changing for the better.
Plan for today; coffee with a friend and then calling someone about a car. Yep, a car. There is a list of things that need to be replaced soon that come with a heavy price tag. I love my car, but I fear she may not have much more in her. Same with my trusty ten year old laptop. When things fall apart, they tend to do it all at the same time.
Sometimes when I look around this world, it makes me smile...and I really appreciate those moments. They are to far and in-between. However, today is good. I woke up happy, the sun is shinning, the breeze graces us with soft hugs, people are enjoying conversations with others and I have my favorite iced coffee in hand. It really does come down to the simple small stuff in life.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Plan for today; coffee with a friend and then calling someone about a car. Yep, a car. There is a list of things that need to be replaced soon that come with a heavy price tag. I love my car, but I fear she may not have much more in her. Same with my trusty ten year old laptop. When things fall apart, they tend to do it all at the same time.
Sometimes when I look around this world, it makes me smile...and I really appreciate those moments. They are to far and in-between. However, today is good. I woke up happy, the sun is shinning, the breeze graces us with soft hugs, people are enjoying conversations with others and I have my favorite iced coffee in hand. It really does come down to the simple small stuff in life.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Is it Tuesday? Well, it was..I think.
You know, one of the strange things about having a few weeks off from school and work is that you begin to loose track of the days. It tends to get confusing. Yet, one of the nice things is how much you are able to get done. Talk about a kick in the butt of spring cleaning for me. I cleaned the entire house, did all my laundry (well, I have one more load left), vacuumed, scrubbed, swept, and so on. I was also able to get a ton of errands out of the way. And I still had time to relax, enjoy movies, video games, music, some tele shows, and fabulous company. It has been like a breath of fresh air.
I ran into some new music that I have been listening to rather enjoyably. First, let's set some things clear... I listen to all kinds of music, and no I am not the type to say that and then only listen to three genres. In fact, I tried this thing that turned out to be awesome and strange at the same time. I decided to play all my music. It's an epic playlist with many genres, lots of old, some new, and so on. Everyone should try it, it's quite the learning experience about oneself. But, back to the new stuff, if you are someone who enjoys Katie Herzig music, then you might also like Jillian Edwards, Mariah McManus, Fossil Collective, and Joy Williams (iTunes - EP albums One of Those Days & Songs From That). Music can touch a persons soul, music is what (at times) sets me free. From Classical to Rock and Roll to Alternitve to whatever floats your boat. In fact, you might just find that some of it is just poetry accompanied by instruments. =D
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
I ran into some new music that I have been listening to rather enjoyably. First, let's set some things clear... I listen to all kinds of music, and no I am not the type to say that and then only listen to three genres. In fact, I tried this thing that turned out to be awesome and strange at the same time. I decided to play all my music. It's an epic playlist with many genres, lots of old, some new, and so on. Everyone should try it, it's quite the learning experience about oneself. But, back to the new stuff, if you are someone who enjoys Katie Herzig music, then you might also like Jillian Edwards, Mariah McManus, Fossil Collective, and Joy Williams (iTunes - EP albums One of Those Days & Songs From That). Music can touch a persons soul, music is what (at times) sets me free. From Classical to Rock and Roll to Alternitve to whatever floats your boat. In fact, you might just find that some of it is just poetry accompanied by instruments. =D
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Monday, July 2, 2012
Tea Time
Today was lovely, busy at times but still lovely. I took my brother to go get food for his lamb, got new license plate lights for my car, went to a book store I have been meaning to go to know for awhile, had mid-day tea and scones with a wonderful friend, visited another great friend and stepped into the past with mario brothers and was even able to get a few chores done. More then a few actually, swept the floors, dusted, spot mopped, cleaned the bathroom and I am now on my second load of laundry. Needless to say it was a very productive yet relaxing day.
I adore friends, friends are fabulous! Mine are charming, helpful, delightful, funny, amazing and much much more. I am very lucky to have such people in my life. I realize at times that we may loose touch for awhile or get caught up in our own lives, but what counts is that we still remain friends, in times of need and even not in times of need. It has been so very wonderful to spend time with my friends as of late and even make some new ones, also catch up with some who have been absent for sometime. Friendship can sometimes be what pulls me out of the darkest places. Thank you to all of my friends! Let us not forget who we are lucky enough to have in our lives and remember from time to time to take a moment and share a spot of tea and scones.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
I adore friends, friends are fabulous! Mine are charming, helpful, delightful, funny, amazing and much much more. I am very lucky to have such people in my life. I realize at times that we may loose touch for awhile or get caught up in our own lives, but what counts is that we still remain friends, in times of need and even not in times of need. It has been so very wonderful to spend time with my friends as of late and even make some new ones, also catch up with some who have been absent for sometime. Friendship can sometimes be what pulls me out of the darkest places. Thank you to all of my friends! Let us not forget who we are lucky enough to have in our lives and remember from time to time to take a moment and share a spot of tea and scones.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
Another Day Passes By
Not much to report on today. I went to my cousins son's first birthday for a bit, then hung out with a few friends, watched an old SNES game being played, had some pizza and breadsticks for dinner and hung out with my younger brother while watching the movies 21 Jump Street and Puss In Boots. Both of which were pretty awesome. I highly recommend them.
What a surprise, still no luck with the living situation. But I picked up a newer classifieds paper and I'll peruse that to see what I can find. Hope there is something soon. Have a few plans for tomorrow, (or rather today) but nothing too major. Most of it is house work and laundry, but I do have a tea/lunch-in to go to which should be fun.
I'm turning in, resting my tired soul for a bit and hope that I get some phone calls or emails tomorrow. Sleep well all.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
What a surprise, still no luck with the living situation. But I picked up a newer classifieds paper and I'll peruse that to see what I can find. Hope there is something soon. Have a few plans for tomorrow, (or rather today) but nothing too major. Most of it is house work and laundry, but I do have a tea/lunch-in to go to which should be fun.
I'm turning in, resting my tired soul for a bit and hope that I get some phone calls or emails tomorrow. Sleep well all.
,___,
{O.o} "Whhoo-Whhoo, What-what?"
/)__) Sincerely,
-"--"- Ashley Lynn
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